Ugh, this is really hard. And it’s not quite working yet.
All last night after my roommate came home and did not say a single word to me I could not focus on anything except obsess over why she’s not talking to me and what I should do next. I stayed up until 1:30 in the morning on websites looking for advice on how to handle this.
I did not buy sneakers last night because they didn’t have the ones I wanted. I need to buy them online, but I’m having trouble justifying the price tag still. Even though I need sneakers, I could just wear other shoes, so it’s hard for me to just get them because I want them.
My hair cut came out great even though I got a really green student. She was nice, if a bit unsure, but she always asked for help if she didn’t know what to do, which I really appreciated. The educator cut my bangs to show her how to, so they came out great ‘cause the teacher did it! I’ve been asking for bangs for years and I finally got them to do it for me. I know it sounds crazy, but I would ask and they’d cut a shorter piece that swoops to the side, but it did not look like bangs so much as hair being swept aside. I guess bangs are challenging for hairdressers. Because I went to a student salon, I got this awesome hair cut for $18 plus tip.
Even though I am on a budget, I managed to get a friend to go to dinner with me tonight so I don’t have to go home right after work. My roommate will most likely be out too, since that’s her MO now, but I at least have a chance of coming home after her, which means I might not have to endure her walking into our room behind me without saying a word tonight. We’ll see. She’ll probably stay out really late like she’s been doing and then just go right to bed.
It’s just awful, having someone you live with in the same room ignoring you. Makes you feel crazy, like maybe you’re reading into things, but then maybe she’s being crazy, but then maybe you did something, and what could it be, and then how long will this last and what if it last forever, what if she finds a new apartment, what will you do? And then you realize she’s not doing anything to you, so her moral high ground is technically intact. Except that it’s rude and just plain mean.
Ignoring someone, I think, is one of the worst kinds of psychological damage you can inflict on someone. It’s the passive aggressive way to tell them they mean so little to you that you can’t even be bothered to utter a one syllable greeting.